Tonight.

I went to the gym. For serious. First time in 2 years. All I will say its going to be a long road back.

Hopefully the pain and punishment will be enough to keep me from doing it again.

Jess, Mom, Sister, " Good for you!"

From Justin, what felt like scoffs and sarcasm.

This is whiny and most like PMS induced but....what the fuck?

Wheres my rock? Wheres my number one fan? The guy that no matter what had my back?

I know I USED to flake a lot on things, but I felt i've been doing better at least. I know I talk about doing many things, and don't do half of them but at the very least I talk about them. I dream about them, I ASPIRE to them. Is that not worth anything? I actually went out there and tried tonight. Made an important first step, fuck I actually went. And all you can do is tell me how terrible ill feel in the morning and making fun of the way I ate my fucking sandwich? really?

Especially after how down and depressed ive been. fantastic.

Yeah, Sorry I didnt let you tackle me on the bed after youre wonderful words of support. Thanks for showing me how much faith you have in me! rad!

Asshole.